Being in a band is difficult...especially when you have brain numbing anxiety and depression...
When I joined this band, I was at a very low point in my life. Stephen and I worked in a warehouse in Denton, Texas and started to talk about music and I found out we had a lot of the same interests. It took me a while to muster up the courage to go and jam because, for some reason, I thought I was never good enough.
My anxiety always got the best of me, until one day I just said "fuck it" and went to jam with him. I plugged in a guitar that he had let me borrow, and just started playing what was the first song I ever wrote..."Cataclysm".
We ended up writing two songs that night, the aforementioned and "Falling Up" (which is still one of my favorites to play live). I couldn't believe how effortlessly those songs came out, how I for once in a long time felt alive. It was then that I knew that something was happening. Bad Blood became a reality...the first band I've ever been in.
Depression is a bitch and anxiety is its bastard whore. I've used music as my muse for as long as I can remember to fight these abominations that have controlled my life. There are always times where they get the best of me, and I tend to drift into this vicious circle in my mind that seems inescapable...until I hit the stage. I never knew the escape I could feel from playing live and just letting it all go on stage.
"Catharsis" is a primary in Bad Blood, and being able to have this escape and release from all the torments and tribulations of life is essential to me.